bye 2011!!

let's say goodbye to 2011 and hello to 2012..
2011 had been a great year for me..
i shall call it an eye-opening year..
i realise many things..
from family,friends and relationship..
the whole thing about life I've learnt in 2011..
I've become more mature and careful around people...

2012 is about to come less than hour by now..
i hope it's brings joy and happiness in my life..
perhaps a great start with the result of straight A for my SPM 2011..
2012, i hope you'll be a great year for me to remember for my whole life..
2011 had been a rough and tough year so i hope 2012 will be a great year..
i really hope so..

love,
aqilah <3
31-12-2011 (Sunday)
-last post in 2011-

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after posting the previous post..

i realise it's quite harsh..

but when i think about it..

if i didn't write it..

they wouldn't know about MY FEELINGS...

well of course i didn't expect them to understand me,but dude..

i'm a human being and i have feelingS and it hurts to be ignored..

like you care if i say it to your face..

one second you care the next second you're not..

i think it's already more than 2 months we had a REAL conversation..

not just like "hey,what did the teacher just said?" or worse "hai."

i mean REAL  is like "how's life? what are you up to?"

if you read this and you think it is because of my mouth,my tongue made us this way..

i'll say this..

THINK AGAIN!! I'M NOT THE PERSON THAT ALWAYS HAVE THE CHANCE TO TALK WHEN I'M WITH YOU GUYS..EVEN IF I DO HAVE THEM NOBODY WOULD LISTEN TO ME..

I'LL JUST FOLLOW YOU AROUND WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING..

EVEN IT'S NOT OKAY WITH ME I'LL JUST SAY IT'S OKAY BECAUSE I HATE TO MAKE YOU THINK I'M NOT FIT TO BE YOUR FRIEND OR BEST FRIEND..

but now i'm fine with it..

because i learnt that my happiness is much more important than anyone else... 

now..i would like to apologise for my harsh words in the previous post..

i'm deeply sorry..but i hope you'll think again of what you've had done/said..

i did my part the last time (i delete all my post and status about our fight and we deal to get it over)..

now it's your time to do your part..

nightmare

saya tak suka awak yang bermuka-muka...
depan saya kutuk-kutuk dia..cakap dia yang puunca segala masalah..
tapi saya dapat tahu awak keluar happy-happy dengan dia..
awak ingat saya ini tunggul,bodoh,bangang,bebal ke huh?
saya tahu awak talam dua muka..
dan tak impossible jugak awak kutuk saya depan diaorang..
ape masalah awak sebenarnya?
nak cari pasal ke dengan saya?
saya nie 'gangster paling besar' taw kat sekolah..
tak takut ke kalo saya tonyoh kepala awak macam saya buat kat kawan baik awak tu?
cakap nak berbaik semula tapi sampai la nie pon tak bertegur..
nicely done my friend...

dan awak lagi sorang..
dulu beriya cerita dekat saya yang si dia nie talam dua muka tapi saya tengok awak bukan main rapat lagi dengan dia..
bila awak gaduh dengan dia awak carik saya..
lepas da baik saya seperti ditendang dan dicampak ke dalam longkang..
so this is the real you?
then i'll say "it's over between us,bitch!"
saya tak perlukan rakan yang tak geti nak appreciate rakan sendiri..
saya ingat awak akan ingat persahabatan kita..
tapi tidak mengapa...saya boleh teruskan hidup saya tanpa awak..
YOU ARE JUST A PIECE OF MEAT

kau boleh kutuk aku sepuaas-puas hati kau lepas nie BECAUSE..
i don't have any memories of you and i don't know that we're even friends...
you are just my nightmares that hunt me for this long years...
when i wake up you will be totally forgotten..
BTW...if i meet your elderly i'll greet them like nothing happened between us
i'll be honored if you give me the Grammy Award that time... :)

p/s: you are welcome to use this against me in court sweetieee...coz i didn't even wrote your name,fella..