One after another

Things keep happening.
I try hard to not feel any sorrow.
But tears keep rolling down.
Maybe not hard enough.

It happens so often.
Until I think I'm better be dead.
But it's not what my faith taught me.
This is just a test for me.

It's a sign for me to be closer to The Creator.
It's a sign for me to be more sincere.
It's a sign for me to appreciate everyone.
I need to change.

The reason..

I'm selfish.

All I can think about is myself, my feelings and my needs.

Not you.